When someone falls sick, we often pray that they will be just fine! Even when we know that they may not recover, we still wish them a quick recovery. We often forget that we are mere mortals and we all have an expiry date. None of us knows when or how. We are reminded by the sight of new coffins glistening in the sun from a new coat of varnish! That sight just sickens me to the core. Death! Mortality! Life! One minute someone is there, the next they are gone…..
I will never forget that boda ride to my sister’s place. The jam on entebbe road was impassable. I clutched on the boda guys jacket for my dear life. People were so many, crossing the road, bodas darting in and out of traffic, conductors hurling insults to neighbouring taxi drivers and conductors… the hooting… My gooodness… the hooting….. but i just leaned forward and kept mumbling a prayer. I was numb. I knew if my mom was dead.. then it was the Lord’s will… so i kept praying and calling my sister who was hystericall and confused… she kept screaming that mom was dying…. i tried my best to calm her down… (she is 9years older than me).
So we managed to manouver through to Kibuye and sped through to Namasuba… then Zana…. i hastily paid the boda guy and rushed into the ate. I was relieved that no one was screaming as people usually do when someone dies… but my gut was in knots….. What if… what if she was gone…. i kept willing myself to be strong….
I got in the house.. and there… sitting calmly.. was my mother…. i have never felt so weak and relieved at the same time.
I held her face between my cold fingers, and for the first time in my life,…. i saw my mom was scared. And now… my fear of death.. death that steals those that are dear to to us… was gone… because i always thought she was magulu nyondo (made of steel) , but there, in the dim light, i saw her age before me… her skin, always soo soft and firm… was now soft.. only soft…. i held her and told her how much i loved her… and hours later… as i walked to my house… i had the courage to let the tears come.
Let’s appreciate life a little more. Lets toast to life. LET’S LOVE MORE….. U NEVER KNOW.!!